Review: A Nightmare Come True

A Nightmare Come True
A Nightmare Come True by Sage Marlowe
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

A Nightmare Come True is basically porn in written form. It has a weak storyline to set the two men up but the focus is on the sex and an equally weak ending to give the characters some kind of an ending. Or not an ending since I guess this is a series. It’s not the worst thing ever but it’s inane and boring and lacks any kind of plot structure. It’s a vehicle for lots of sex, which may be what some readers want. I’ve reader hotter and better erotica/porn in the genre so I wouldn’t recommend this. However I also didn’t want to throw it across the metaphorical room so that’s why I gave it another half star, rounded up.

The premise actually made me roll my eyes because it’s so weak and the story doesn’t even bother to put any effort into it at all. Mikey gets a handyman job on a porn set where he sees his all time favorite porn star, Colin, staring in several films. Eventually Mikey gets in on the action and takes it a step further to actually fall in love and date Colin. However, Colin is hiding a deep dark secret that may change everything. (Spoiler…it doesn’t)

To be honest, I would have thought this resembled porn in written form even before the clear connection, but it does strike me as a lack of effort that the story doesn’t even try to build on the obvious setup. The sex scenes start almost immediately and Mikey has an obsession with Colin well before they first have sex. Interspersed with sex scenes are these weird attempts to show a connection between Mikey and Colin that go beyond just screwing each other. However, these scenes are so awkward and make little to no sense. There is no ‘getting to know each other’ kind of discourse. Instead they banter back and forth about sex and their preconceived judgmental attitudes about most things. Which while annoying is fine, except it shows neither man is really interested in knowing more about the other. They’re just interested in talking about themselves.

Furthermore the two finally have sex together, and then Mikey obsesses about said sex. They have more sex, more obsessing and so on. Eventually Colin makes a comment about how he’s in love with Mikey but I had no idea where that came from. Their entire relationship is sex, sex, and more sex and the story shows little to no real interaction beyond that to indicate a deeper, more lasting connection. And even then I didn’t get the idea the two men were that attached to each other, more so both liked their chemistry and easy access to all the sex they wanted. I was honestly surprised when they talked about a real relationship, which was absent the entire story.

There is an additional supernatural component but I have to say this was incredibly weak and actually hurt the story. If the point was to make an erotica based story, then do so unabashed of a pseudo supernatural vehicle. This additional “plot” point was simply unnecessary. Mikey comes across eager, desperate, and ridiculous in his response to Colin’s supernatural nature. I liked the idea of it and how Colin’s nature fit into the porn world but I don’t think the story did a good job of executing the entire plot and especially this part.

I think the story has some good ideas and could have been a decent supernatural story with a fun bit of erotica thrown in but the execution fails. The men are one dimensional, wooden, and lack any deeper feelings to base their relationship off of, additionally what plot exists is simply robotic, predictable and uninteresting. Ultimately, this story is a good concept that fails in the execution. I honestly wouldn’t recommend it at all sadly.

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Review: Going Up

Going Up
Going Up by Amy Lane
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Lately I haven’t been in the mood for m/m books but I chose this because it’s Amy Lane, usually a sure fire hit for me. It was a cute, sweet enough story but kind of boring. I find Lane’s greatest books come with heaping amounts of angst. When she tries to do sweet or light, it never hits the mark for me unfortunately. This is a novella so it was quick to read and innocuous but I forgot it almost while I was reading it and never really engaged in the story. The meet-cute was sweet but it lingered in nowhere for too long and then I never really bought into the chemistry between the two men. I’d probably recommend it for someone that likes very sweet renditions of fairytales.

Zach is a lonely rich boy. He grew up with extremely wealthy, politically ambitious parents who therefore didn’t have much time and affection for him. He followed their dictates and went to law school, all the while hiding his sexuality. When Zach meets school teacher Sean in the elevator of their apartment building, Zach finally realizes that he’s found someone worth coming out for. Only then he has to also figure out how to get more than 30 seconds with Sean at a time.

The premise is pretty cute I have to say. I did enjoy the concept of meeting someone in the elevator that you find attractive but not having time to really pursue that. Their brief conversations, punctuated by the DING! of the elevator floors was a nice affectation that made me smile each time I read it. The two men lead pretty busy lives with their work so long periods of time go by with very little interaction. Here is where I think the story keeps them apart for too long. It’s only at the very end do they actually spend time together outside of the elevator and at that point, they pretty much fall in love and move in together immediately. I will give the writing credit for doing everything it could to make this believable but I struggled with it due to the lack of chemistry between the two men.

Here is where my enjoyment of the story falters. Both Zach and Sean are bland and inoffensive. They’re also interchangeable to a point. I liked Sean’s various outfits and Zach’s slow gathering of friends and a social life, so I didn’t dislike the characters. They simply failed to make a connection with me as the reader or between each other, in my opinion. I never felt much chemistry between the two men and the later sex scenes did little to convince me otherwise. Perhaps it was the overly corny dialogue and poetry references while they were making out. I understood where the story was going with Zach’s emotional neediness but I never felt as though it was true to the character. He always seemed more self imposed than what the story portrayed, or at least that’s how I saw him.

Ultimately it’s a cute, easy to read and quick story about a lonely prince that finds love with a messy, adorable, completely opposite kind of man with a big family that will envelop him in the love he’s always wanted. It’s nothing new or different but still endearing in its own way for the right reader.

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100 books isn’t that much.. not really.

Readers like us read that in a year, if not less. So I shouldn’t really complain. Plus I know I’ve read some of these so that’ll break it down as well.

Diving into said list-
Red are the ones I’ve read
Blue are ones I want to read
Green I am not going to read!
Black are all the others I haven’t read

  1. “1984″ by George Orwell : I consider this one of the first post-apocalyptic novels. Disturbing but fascinating. Worth re-reading IMO.
  2. “A Brief History of Time” by Stephen Hawking : I’ve read parts of this but not the whole thing. In my lifetime I’ll  finish it, hopefully.
  3. “A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius” by Dave Eggers: Definitely want to read.
  4. “A Long Way Gone” by Ishmael Beah : Yeaaaaah. I’m not sure on this one. It’s one of those “should read” but not want to read.
  5. “A Series of Unfortunate Events #1: The Bad Beginning: The Short-Lived Edition” by Lemony Snicket: Cute. Epic? um. 
  6. “A Wrinkle in Time” by Madeleine L’Engle: I know I’ve read this but can’t remember reading it. Time for re-read.
  7. “Alice Munro: Selected Stories” by Alice Munro 
  8. “Alice in Wonderland” by Lewis Carroll: I think everyone knows the story even if you haven’t read the book.
  9. “All the President’s Men” by Bob Woodward and Carl Bernstein
  10. “Angela’s Ashes: A Memoir” by Frank McCourt: Couldn’t finish it. Too depressing.
  11. “Are You There, God? It’s me, Margaret” by Judy Blume: I think all teenage girls have to read this.
  12. “Bel Canto” by Ann Patchett
  13. “Beloved” by Toni Morrison
  14. “Born To Run: A Hidden Tribe, Superathletes, and the Greatest Race the World Has Never Seen” by Christopher McDougall
  15. “Breath, Eyes, Memory” by Edwidge Danticat
  16. “Catch-22″ by Joseph Heller: I wonder how some people haven’t read these?
  17. “Charlie and the Chocolate Factory” by Roald Dahl: Classic!
  18. “Charlotte’s Web” by E.B. White: Classic!
  19. “Cutting For Stone” by Abraham Verghese
  20. “Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent, and Lead” by Brene Brown
  21. “Diary of a Wimpy Kid, Book 1″ by Jeff Kinney
  22. “Dune” by Frank Herbert: One of my favorite books of all time. The original movie and series were pretty good too.
  23. “Fahrenheit 451″ by Ray Bradbury: I’m a fan of these social commentary books and they’re the kind of classics and iconic books that I think belong on these lists. Beyond Dickens, Austen, Irving  (sorry).
  24. “Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas: A Savage Journey to the Heart of the American Dream” by Hunter S. Thompson
  25. “Gone Girl” by Gillian Flynn: SERIOUSLY?! I hate this book. SO MUCH! I liked the wife getting revenge (I’m a scorpio and can dig that kind of wrath of god hatred) but the author took a wrong turn in the last third. Ruined the book in her typical way.
  26. “Goodnight Moon” by Margaret Wise Brown: I wonder who hasn’t read this. 
  27. “Great Expectations” by Charles Dickens: NEVER AGAIN DICKENS! Never again.
  28. “Guns, Germs, and Steel: The Fates of Human Societies” by Jared M. Diamond
  29. “Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone” by J.K. Rowling: I really like the Harry Potter series for easy, very light reading.
  30. “In Cold Blood” by Truman Capote: Heh. I read this about 3 months ago not realizing what an influential book it was. I thought it was a random true crime book and oddly verbosely detailed. My mom commented she’d read it and I thought “really? this random book?” 
  31. “Interpreter of Maladies” by Jhumpa Lahiri
  32. “Invisible Man” by Ralph Ellison
  33. “Jimmy Corrigan: Smartest Kid on Earth” by Chris Ware
  34. “Kitchen Confidential” by Anthony Bourdain: Again one of my favorite books that I’ve read numerous times. I bet he’ll be shocked to see it on the list, but it’s one I whole heartedly recommend.
  35. “Life After Life” by Kate Atkinson
  36. “Little House on the Prairie” by Laura Ingalls Wilder: I’m passing on this one. Won’t be reading.
  37. “Lolita” by Vladimir Nabokov: Ahh, the birth of the deep seated psychological daddy issues.
  38. “Love in the Time of Cholera” by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
  39. “Love Medicine” by Louise Erdrich
  40. “Man’s Search for Meaning” by Viktor Frankl
  41. “Me Talk Pretty One Day” by David Sedaris: This made me laugh. Sedaris is a funny, funny guy. I am surprised to see it here though.
  42. “Middlesex” by Jeffrey Eugenides
  43. “Midnight’s Children” by Salman Rushdie
  44. “Moneyball” by Michael Lewis
  45. “Of Human Bondage” by W. Somerset Maugham
  46. “On the Road” by Jack Kerouac
  47. “Out of Africa” by Isak Dinesen: I know I read this but can’t remember it.
  48. “Persepolis” by Marjane Satrapi
  49. “Portnoy’s Complaint” by Philip Roth
  50. “Pride and Prejudice” by Jane Austen: UGH! Not a fan. 
  51. “Silent Spring” by Rachel Carson
  52. “Slaughterhouse-Five” by Kurt Vonnegut: With the other classics (Bradbury, Orwell, Heller) it definitely is a must-read for social dynamics which sadly haven’t changed at all.
  53. “Team of Rivals” by Doris Kearns Goodwin
  54. “The Age of Innocence” by Edith Wharton
  55. “The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay” by Michael Chabon
  56. “The Autobiography of Malcolm X” by Malcolm X and Alex Haley
  57. “The Book Thief” by Markus Zusak
  58. “The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao” by Junot Diaz
  59. “The Catcher in the Rye” by J.D. Salinger
  60. “The Color of Water” by James McBride
  61. “The Corrections” by Jonathan Franzen
  62. “The Devil in the White City: Murder, Magic, and Madness at the Fair that Changed America” by Erik Larson
  63. “The Diary of Anne Frank” by Anne Frank: Can you make it out of high school without reading this?
  64. “The Fault in Our Stars” by John Green
  65. “The Giver” by Lois Lowry
  66. “The Golden Compass: His Dark Materials” by Philip Pullman
  67. “The Great Gatsby” by F. Scott Fitzgerald: I have blocked this from memory. 
  68. “The Handmaid’s Tale” by Margaret Atwood: A really fascinating book but I found it overall depressing. Worth reading but not something I want to read again.
  69. “The House At Pooh Corner” by A. A. Milne: 
  70. “The Hunger Games” by Suzanne Collins: I loved it though I think Battle Royale deserved the spot on the list instead.
  71. “The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks” by Rebecca Skloot
  72. “The Liars’ Club: A Memoir” by Mary Karr
  73. “The Lightning Thief (Percy Jackson and the Olympians, Book 1)” by Rick Riordan: Saw the movie?
  74. “The Little Prince” by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry: Great children’s book. Bought it recently for my nieces. 
  75. “The Long Goodbye” by Raymond Chandler: Anything by Chandler is a win with me. Not my favorite of his because really the Maltese Falcon was passed up for this one? But good nonetheless.
  76. “The Looming Tower: Al-Qaeda and the Road to 9/11″ by Lawrence Wright : um. One day.
  77. “The Lord of the Rings” by J.R.R. Tolkien: Iconic fantasy. Who’s read this with the movie out? In this case the movie matches the books in many ways.
  78. “The Man Who Mistook His Wife For A Hat: And Other Clinical Tales” by Oliver Sacks
  79. “The Omnivore’s Dilemma: A Natural History of Four Meals” by Michael Pollan
  80. “The Phantom Tollbooth” by Norton Juster
  81. “The Poisonwood Bible: A Novel” by Barbara Kingsolver
  82. “The Power Broker: Robert Moses and the Fall of New York” by Robert A. Caro
  83. “The Right Stuff” by Tom Wolfe
  84. “The Road” by Cormac McCarthy: I feel proprietary about this since I read it before it won the Pulitzer and was made into a bad movie. It’s wonderful though. Moved me to tears and it’s a book I cherish.
  85. “The Secret History” by Donna Tartt
  86. “The Shining” by Stephen King : Interesting this is chosen from all potential King novels. Again, it’s not my favorite of his but probably chosen for the creepy factor. I think he’s written better books than this. Not to mention who actually READ it vs seeing the movie?
  87. “The Stranger” by Albert Camus
  88. “The Sun Also Rises” by Ernest Hemingway: Read so long ago I don’t remember it so will re-read.
  89. “The Things They Carried” by Tim O’Brien
  90. “The Very Hungry Caterpillar” by Eric Carle
  91. “The Wind in the Willows” by Kenneth Grahame
  92. “The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle: A Novel” by Haruki Murakami
  93. “The World According to Garp” by John Irving: Ugh. I didn’t really like this. I don’t see why it made the list.
  94. “The Year of Magical Thinking” by Joan Didion
  95. “Things Fall Apart” by Chinua Achebe
  96. “To Kill a Mockingbird” by Harper Lee : Another high school classic that retains relevancy. 
  97. “Unbroken: A World War II Story of Survival, Resilience, and Redemption” by Laura Hillenbrand
  98. “Valley of the Dolls” by Jacqueline Susann
  99. “Where the Sidewalk Ends” by Shel Silverstein: Another children’s classic. Required when growing up I thought.
  100. “Where the Wild Things Are” by Maurice Sendak: I want to say I’ve read this but I can’t remember doing so. Re-read time!

So I’ve read 34 out of 100. That’s not that many. I thought I’d have read more. There are a handful I just don’t remember so I can’t really count them as read and more that I’ve actively avoided (yes, I avoid Austen). 9 of them are books I’ve had my eye on and thinking about getting around to reading anyway.

That leaves over half as “should reads” which we’ll see. I’ll check them out and maybe even start them so I can be a well rounded literate but again… why can’t this list be m/m? hehe

Book lists and pressure…

Sometimes I’m convinced the universe hates people, well by people I mean me of course. I don’t believe in religion, spirituality, karma, or any kind of god so really I don’t honestly think any random spirit or omnipotent being is out to get me. I just…wish I could blame shit on it.

Life sadly hasn’t gotten much better but I’ve decided to just ignore it, because it all sucks and I can’t fix most of it. Not only do I have a massive dr’s bill for my injured knee, an auto repair bill for my car due to the asshole that rear-ended me and sped away, and a vet bill because really why doesn’t everything go to hell at once? At least we’re all alive, if beat up.


So I’m feeling pressure and decide what better escapism then reading. Then I open up - Amazon’s 100 books to read this year list.

100 books. That’s a lot of pressure. A lot of reading. What if it’s not.. fun?

I’ve read the hyped books and authors.
Gillian Flynn – horrible characters but well written if you like reading despicable people doing despicable things with non-endings.
James Dashner – decent writing but horrible plots that always fall apart after the first book and I end up loathing a series I liked at the start.
Charles Dickens – I’m sorry but this guy needed a good editor. Depressing and overly verbose I just can’t with him. Good themes but kills it every time.
Suzanne Collins – I loved the Hunger Games trilogy but it will never sit well with me that it’s a total rip off of Battle Royale and never credited for it.

And so on.. so while I enjoy popular or recommended books from a wide variety of genres, I’m never sure if such lists are going to be… well interesting and fun or simply pressure to do what someone tells you to read.



Oh you’re feeling more optimistic? Great! I’ll try.

Why not start a sure to be doomed project of reading books off the 100 must read books of the year list. Because that’s a goal sure to not happen! So now I have to make the list and see which ones I’ve read, which I remember because I KNOW I read Great Gatsby but there’s a reason it’s blocked forever in my mind. Bad walking/reading accident in high school? No clue.

Why can’t we have a list of the 100 greatest m/m books to read? *ponders* we should get on that.

Even though this is nominally an m/m blog it’s also my area that no one but me reads so I’m gonna update my progress here. I also have about 15 m/m books I need to get on when I can stop hating on everything for a moment. They’re books I even -want- to read.

Anyone going to Rainbow Con in April?

So I was signing up for some races this year and thinking of how I was doing pretty well at spending money when it occurred to me I  need to book my hotel and flight for Rainbow Con in Florida.


Which leads me to my question …

Anyone else going?
And further, anyone interested in sharing a room?

I’m all about sharing with internet strangers and potential serial killers. I trust you.
Nothing bad happened to me back at GRL New Orleans!
In fact it was lovely so I’ll take another chance.


Has it been that long!

Wow. It’s been 2 weeks…really?






I didn’t realize it’d been so long. The 2 weeks surrounding Christmas and New Years is kind of tough busy wise, but I was off work so I should have been more on the ball. In my defense though – life sucks. I caught then the flu THEN strep throat. Yes that’s right. I was sick with both. Although sick I got zero reading done.

Nothing. Zilch. Nada.

Instead I played video games and watched old episodes of La Femme Nikita, aka the greatest show ever.

Oh I did read an Us Weekly issue. And re-listen to Ender’s Game, which always always makes me cry. Poor little Ender. I’m tempted to re-read the series (like I always am when I read EG) but I know it all sucks after this book. OSC can’t write anything else.

I’ve lost touch with the world and have no clue what books I wanted to read.
I remember there being a lot.

2014 started off shitty but I’m hopeful if I can just get through January life will be pick up and get on track again. I may be absent though I hope not. There is a ton of family and personal drama going on and my flu/strep incidents have turned into a pretty significant head cold. Which of course just makes me want to sit at home, play video games and watch LFN.

I miss you reading and I’ll get back to you. Someday!

I’ve been reading blogs but not commenting so I apologize. I did write down every book Jen recommended and laughed at the sprite/7-up taste test while buying 3 books Kaetrin recommended (non-m/m even!). I’m also jealous of Chris’ cats (who seem normal in their insanity).

Hope everyone else had a wonderful and much happier holiday season.


Recent non-m/m

I have had mixed luck with my non-m/m reading lately.

The first 4 books of the Ilona Andrews’ Kate Daniels series

38619Magic Bites – meh. I liked it ok and got into the series. The narrator takes quite a bit to get used to because she sounds like a man on crack but I liked the kick ass heroine. The plot wasn’t anything special or that attention grabbing. The setting is what made me want more. Urban fantasy with a twist.




1811543Magic Burns – LOATHED ENTIRELY. I actually paid $20 for the audio version (I usually rent from the library) just for this book to listen to during my marathon. I hated this book so much. It was horrible. If I had been smart I would have switched audio books but I couldn’t stop running. If I’d stopped I wouldn’t have started again so I had to listen to the entire, horrible, awful book this was. Bad premise. Bad characters. Bad situations, and a ridiculous ending.



4345498Magic Strikes – So you’re probably surprised I managed to read this one at all given my other feelings. However I loved this one. I really did. I had heard the series gets better so I went back to it and wished this book never ended. I think Kate and the writing have really hit their stride. It managed to balance a kick ass chick with vulnerability and flaws with even a love interest and a plot. Impressive!



6479550Magic Bleeds – again I loved it. I thought the Kate and Curren relationship came along beautifully while the extension of Kate’s job finally got some real traction. The family connections from Kate’s past really worked well and gave some much needed depth to Kate’s character. I feel as though the series is taking off and going great. I’m trying to space out the next books when all I want to do is gorge.




I’ve tried several books and DNF’d them including:

1421990Halfway to the Grave  by Jeaniene Frost

I wonder what I’m missing? This book got a ton of 5 star reviews and accolades from people and reviewers I trust but I couldn’t finish it. I hated it.  Bones is hot for sure but Cat drove me insane. She’s idiotic, hypocritical, and stupid. Sometimes the stupidity of her actions would have me saying out loud “of course you’re a fucking idiot.” She gets into trouble time and time again, forcing Bones to rescue her. I thought she was some bad ass? Um, not so much. I prefer my kick ass heroines to actually be smarter, more eloquent, and capable than this one. I honestly couldn’t finish because I kept hoping a vamp would kill her.

18710190 Allegiant by Veronica Roth

Seriously? This is a horrible book. It’s like the author took the previous 2 successful books, threw them out the window while keeping the characters and put them in an entirely new book. I mean the premise is nominally there but it’s so convoluted and stupid. The explanation of the government conspiracy is SO BAD I actually threw the book. I couldn’t read anymore. I skimmed to the end to see what happened then was glad I threw the book. This author definitely thinks she’s some kind of bad ass for killing off her main character in a completely superfluous and idiotic reason. One that actually made no sense. But hey! You’re so cool you killed off your money maker and pissed off the internet (no doubt?). Good for you?



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